A pensive one

Today has been a pensive day for me.  My Aunt Carol died a couple days ago, which naturally lead to moments of personal introspection.  As a tribute to my aunt, she was absolutely fabulous.  She loved. loved, served and loved some more.  That was her style.  Not only did she love everyone, but she did so unconditionally and without judgement.  She saw everyone's light of Christ as it overcast any outer or inner flaws.  I want to be like that.  I have never met a person in my life who doesn't have something beautiful to offer, or something at which they excel.  I wish to see those things brighter than anything else.  Children do that.  I just finished my last day at Lakeview Academy, teaching K-6 music and Middle School Choir.  Those children see only good.  They loved me with all of my flaws.  They even complimented me often.  Christ asks us to be like little children and after a PHENOMENAL year of teaching, I understand even better why that is.  My Aunt Carol was like a child in many spiritual ways. I wish to aspire to that.  

  More than anything I want to record my feelings of gratitude, which seem to be overwhelming me.  God has given me so many wonderful things: my husband, whom I cherish and adore; my baby, who has been kicking me all day to remind me she's in there; my family, who loves me despite my weaknesses; my in-laws, who have accepted me and shown nothing less than perfect, unconditional love; my friends, who have touched my life and continue to do so; Jesus Christ and His all-encompassing Atonement, which cleanses and heals me and an incredible job for the last year, that taught me to love deeper and see clearer (and a bit of patience as well).  The list could continue for many lines.  

  So I've had a pensive day, one with some tears shed, but a fabulous day nonetheless.  Thank you God, for helping me discover through the spirit.